In quintessential triviality for years in this fleshcase a shesoul dwelt.

when i feel jaunty, as i do in swings, i drive around listening to the spin doctors and laughing. and when i feel nervous i mumble. when i see my grandparents i feel perturbed, which is probably not the right feeling. but then i remember when my dog would bark at nothing or want to go out early and i'd be annoyed but then he died, and i hadnt looked at him for months because i was away. so then i went out to dinner with my grandparents, cuz i dont want them to just slip away lying on some table after months out of my sight, like my dog did. and i walked back to the dorm that day in february with michael and he did an irish accent for me, which was nice. it made me forget.

and when i feel nostalgic after unforgetting and letting a song slip over me that has bits of personalities and experiensnippets embedded in it then i smile and i restrain myself from hugging my friends because that's weird sometimes. and as i sit here at this concert on the lawn i think about the ones i havent seen in so long; it's funny, so many make me think of jay even though i havent seen him in years - sweet baby james - and then i think of alex who i miss dearly - you've got a friend and joey - on the roof (even though he's right there but still, i remember when we climbed up all the stadium-stairs and laid under the bare sky staring at the million karet stars). and i think of going back to carolina soon, and i imagine the antics of the year which seems so near and far. and im feeling amorous but i keep it to myself. it's hard to contain, this ardence. its almost let free (metaphorically) by joey blitzing up the wall to try and sneak backstage. ha that kid. is great.

Playing? James Taylor. Summertime Blues.

you can't cure 'em.